Classic Collision Atlanta #340

Posted on 27. Jul, 2015 by in Classic Collision Atlanta

5/22/13

I have a question for all of you….

If you knew that you were going to die…would you behave any differently?

Of course you would!…and, depending on how much time you had left…that would determine everything.

I think its safe to say that we would all go through the 12 steps…and many of those who have regrets…that would determine how that time would be spent.

I think that a selfish person would live in regret…as their entire life has probably been all about them…so, there would be a lot of self pity…and a lot of feeding their flesh…once again…it s all about them.

Now, a person who was very selfish in their past…may go through similar states…but, they would probably spend their remaining days…trying to be a better person to those that they have wronged…and apologizing to those they may have forgotten along the way.

Some people may choose to travel…some may choose to live out unfulfilled fantasies…some might read books…some might spend everyday in church, hoping it will get them in to heaven.

I have spent the last ten years doing all of these things….in varying degrees. I had no idea I’d live this long. So, once I was still around…and figured that I might be around as long as many of my relatives…I knew that everything I’d survived was so wrong…yet, I was still here/..and I could grow old, rotten and angry…or, I could try to make some sense of it all…and get where it is that I’m supposed to go…

Its weird still being alive…only because its not that someone my size…should have not have been able to survive what I have.

Damn, I’d love to be happy…and grateful for the fact that I am here and that it’s a miracle…

But, how? How can I be happy…knowing…that there are people out there…that are so sick….that they would rather kill another person…because they think that they are entitled….and pissed because they got caught.

I’m glad my life was a wreck. I’m glad that I was forced to change. I’m glad that I made a decision to accept what I have done and do wrong…

How can you live in your skin…raping and robbing….your entire life? How do you do it, sober?

Manfred, I wouldn’t change a thing. If I had it to do over again…I would do the same thing. There are no do overs! I am proud of myself for outing you…even though its going to cost me my life.

So, have I behaved differently…knowing that I am going to die?

Being diagnosed with Cancer has got to me mortifying…and it seems like that would be a luxury…from where I am sitting!

You see…anyone would behave…erratically…knowing that their life, as they know it…is going to end..

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dying_Changes_Everything

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