Classic Collision Atlanta #765

Posted on 09. Jun, 2014 by in Classic Collision Atlanta

8/3/14

I wrote this before my bridgework:

We’re not supposed to hate..
I get it…

We’re supposed to pray for everyone..

I get it..

But, I’m not there yet!

I’m miserable as Hell and my life sucks..

I cannot figure out how to move forward,

with what I’ve been through…

I don’t see how anything is possible, now….

Before, I’d somehow pick myself up and dust myself off..

I’m so freaking tired..

The wounds are constantly changing form..

but, they don’t seem to be able to heal…

I may see a forest…

but, I cannot identify any of the trees…

Then, I might I see a bunch of trees, that I can identify….

and they may be in the bottom of the ocean..

If you are actually visualizing this..

maybe you’re the one that’s crazy..

It’s a figure of speech..

Everything is out of place ..

and no matter how hard I try…

The only thing that fits and makes sense is…

a very powerful person raped me and threatened my life…

This is not for you to figure out..

You have not lived one moment of my life..

I

but, they don’t seem to be able to heal…

I may see a forest…

but, I cannot identify any of the trees…

Then, I might I see a bunch of trees, that I can identify….

and they may be in the bottom of the ocean..

If you are actually visualizing this..

maybe you’re the one that’s crazy..

It’s a figure of speech..

Everything is out of place ..

and no matter how hard I try…

The only thing that fits and makes sense is…

a very powerful person raped me and threatened my life…

This is not for you to figure out..

You have not lived one moment of my life..

In my world….monsters exist..

In your world, maybe they only exist on TV…

I was raped and I don’t know how to get it out of my system..

All I do know is..

the thought that he has done this to others is unbearable..

To fathom that there have been…..or, will be more..

incomprehensible…

God grant me the strength to survive MAN…

Man will probably name a sports drink after Manfred Kammerer….

and do everything to me…

just shy of burning me at the stake..

Why do I continue to waste my words….

NO meant nothing to Manfred Kammerer, my boss, Classic Collision and its employees, the police, the GBI, The FBI, the Kammerer family, the media…and so on…

Today..8/3/14, I still feel like I deserve to breathe oxygen…

That began as of 7/25/14..

I think the financial world is far more harsh than the dope world.

The addiction is greater..

The results are far more devastating…

and many of the people who are participating in the criminal activity, are sober!

I am so far from being perfect..

I am so far from being there…

But, if you can’t live with what you are doing, sober…

You’re not a spring chicken, anymore….

and you shouldn’t be doing those things, anymore!

And, leave people the Hell alone, that are trying to stop!

Need I say more….

Today..8/3/14, I still feel like I deserve to breathe oxygen…

That began as of 7/25/14..

I think the financial world is far more harsh than the dope world.

The addiction is greater..

The results are far more devastating…

and many of the people who are participating in the criminal activity, are sober!

I am so far from being perfect..

I am so far from being there…

But, if you can’t live with what you are doing, sober…

You’re not a spring chicken, anymore….

and you shouldn’t be doing those things, anymore!

And, leave people the Hell alone, that are trying to stop!

 

 

 

 

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