Classic Collision Atlanta #346

Posted on 22. Jul, 2015 by in Classic Collision Atlanta

5/28/13

It is sad that families can’t get along…then, something happens…and all of a sudden, everyone finds a way to unite

Isn’t it even sadder when people decide to unite, to attack people who are defending themselves….then, when all is said and done…they’ll go right back to hating one another…again.

They say, “Like father, like son. Like mother, like daughter.”

If two people hate each other…and then chances are…that they are just alike…why would the younger of the two want to pass that down…generation, after generation? Gee, I cannot stand my elder…and I act just like him or her…therefore, I can’t stand myself…so, why not bring another one into the world. Doesn’t this world have enough problems, as it is!!!

This made me think. When the behavior comes out in me…that I very much despise…that which is brought out by what Manfred has done…and is doing to me…it only reminds me of how hard I was working towards getting away from all of this crap.

To look at ones self, in the mirror…and despise everything that you see…that is a horrible place to be…even tougher, being knocked of the ladder, as I was trying to climb it…the correct way!

What I read in that letter, yesterday…I saw behavior, in myself that makes me sick! It is caused by my being exposed to men who have caused irreversible damage in my life,…and expect me to GET OVER IT…while every footstep they take…breaks another back!

I often wonder how being raped and abused, for four years…over two years ago…can still f— with my head…as badly as if it had happened yesterday…

Then, yesterday…I ran across a letter that I had received in December 1998…and it hurt just as badly as it did, the day I received it….

I understand that people do stupid, and even cruel things…it generally stems from something that they are carrying around…But, to still behave that way…40 years later???? And act s if there is nothing wrong with it?*^$&^$#

Manfred Kammerer, this is far from over…and we now have something in common..

When I came to you and told you that I had an affair with one of the shop managers…it was the first time that I had ever witnessed the destruction of my actions…the damage from that train wreck is probably as bad today…as it was back then…

You are, for the first time…being forced to witness the destruction of your actions….and the damage, today…is worse than what it was back then…

I can now say that there are certain kinds of damage than never go away!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma

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